Day 12

Today is Sunday- our family regulary attends church at First Baptist Gurley and I have missed the past two weeks- my sister volunteered again to stay with Momma while I went to church and I was especially happy because today we celebrated Pastor Appreciation Day with a dinner on the ground. Momma slept well last night- still wake up once by calling for "Mother"- I don't think that will ever change- but it's fine- After church and di nner, I brought home a plate of food for her- and if you don't already know- Southern Baptist women can cook!!! She enjoyed her food and her apetite has really improved- I just hope she doesn't put on a lot of extra weight- because it will keep her from gaining mobility. After church, I was dying to take a nap and I asked her if she would mind- she said that she wanted me to get some rest, so I found an interesting movie for her to watch and I took a great nap for about two hours. When I woke up, I began to feel really overwhelmed for some reason- my husband was asking what was for supper, the boys were needing football uniforms washed, Momma needed to go to the bathroom and i just wanted to pull my hair out and scream! I fixed hamburgers and hot dogs for everyone and I just ate noodles- Sam wanted me to play Monopoly with him after supper, and Jerry decided to play too- Momma didn't want to play but she watched. During the game, I told Sam that I was going to miss his last football game tomorrow because I didn't have anyone to watch Grandma- he acted disappointed and it did'n't help matters much when Jerry and Jay put in their two cents about it- I felt sorry for Momma and told him I was doing the best I could- I tried to call my sister- Connie but no answer- then I called Janice because she had said she would be interested in helping sit with my mother part-time- which I would pay her for. She wasn't available either- I don't want Momma to feel like she is a burden- she's not- it is just an adjustment for our kids because we have always attended every sporting or other event. I just need some understanding. I looked over the brochures tonight for the Alzheimer Assisted Living place that we had talked about this week- I dread having to do that- but there is no way she can stay alone and no way that I can stay out of work after January. But all will work out- it always does- Romans 8:28 reminds me that "All things work together for good for those who love the Lord"- don't I know it...