Day 18

Today was probably the worst- for me anyway- Momma woke twice and then slept until 10:00- but I kept waiting to hear her on the monitor and couldn't get much sleep- I woke up at 2am thinking about ways to purchase a cottage type home for her to put on our property. I just don't think she will do well in assisted living- I'm afraid she will decline again if she is put in any facility. Around 12 noon, I realized that our toilet and tub were backed up downstairs! Yuk ! I called the plumber and our septic tank needed pumping- only $500- it seems that when we get just a bit ahead- something happens to push us back financially- I was really upset about it- and had still not been able to bathe my mother because of the tub being backed up- so it was around 6 when she finally got her shower- the whole day I have felt exhausted-I think momma did too- I've even been depressed- having that feeling that I needed to bust out and go or do something- I don't know why because yesterday was so busy- I just couldn't seem to rest today though- I guess worry and realizing that we will have to make a decision about her care in about 6 weeks- I am also wearing down a bit physically and mentally- I need a break I guess- and not just a few hours break- maybe I will schedule a massage at the spa in the next week or two- I have a gift certificate I can use. So far I'm not hearing her on the monitor- so I guess she is resting well. Tomorrow I get to go to church because Connie is coming to watch momma...